Wednesday, October 28, 2009

I am sad. I know I shouldn't just let it go, but what if I say I've reached my limit and really might snap anytime from here. Will all of you still want me to hold on? I don't remember how it feels like to laugh heartily without worrying about anything. I really don't anymore. I'm not giving up on this dream, I just want to do it another way. The world is much bigger than a little place like here. Somewhere, someday, somehow I will find my way. Please. I just need all of you to stay with me.

Posted by HUIYAN at 10:48 PM

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Four days ago was mummy's birthday.
Also the day when I met with an accident on the road.
What a bad experience.

Posted by HUIYAN at 5:44 PM

Monday, September 21, 2009

I've lost, you've won. Tears just won't stop running. The heart just won't stop hurting. I feel like I'm really close to my last gasp. This time, all of you have hurt me so deep. So bad that I don't trust anyone anymore. I never felt like I've nothing at all before, but it got me thinking I really don't. Not people who loves me. I never thought I'd ever end up in this situation. I don't want to grow up, I just want to forever remain like a baby. Fashion is over for me. Game's over. Everything. But to that only few who loves me so, I'm grateful and I'm sorry for being a disappointment.
Dom
Dar
Shurun
Mwen,
it's only you guys I'm left with.
Ilove all of you

Posted by HUIYAN at 2:04 AM

Monday, August 31, 2009

I miss you too but I'm sorry I ought to do this.

Posted by HUIYAN at 2:02 AM

Thursday, August 27, 2009


In the mood for optics arts ;

Posted by HUIYAN at 3:12 AM

Monday, August 24, 2009

Time flies and before we know it, it's time for bro to fly off.
Take care and I love you, kor kor

Posted by HUIYAN at 3:22 AM

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Too much happened in just a week.

Where should I begin?

Sequence of events goes like this.

I was down with a major Gastroenteritis a week ago. The bugs just decided to attack my small intestine and stomach again. Was feverish, nauseous, diarrhea and dizzy hence mum and dad got paranoid about H1N1 since I just returned from WA. Consulted the GP to confirm H1N1 negative. It's just the tummy bug but they're slowly losing the battle in my body.

Those sleepless nights and emptiness in our porch. I just wasn't prepared for all that to happen yet. Not at all ready for her to go. It's been exactly a week since Chantille left us, yet it still makes my eyes turn watery at times. May you rest in peace and we love you so much.

My brother received a mail awhile ago. He made it to Boston University, School of Business. One of the top business schools in the world. I'm so proud of the people in my family. First my beloved dad flourishing over these years, my sister, the Veterinarian and brother's achievement so far. And I ought to do some soul searching. Apart from using up resources in this world, what have I done so far? Zero, exclamation point.

Posted by HUIYAN at 5:42 AM